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Wednesday, October 30, 2024
Halloween Eve
Friday, September 27, 2024
silence in the storm
Tuesday, September 10, 2024
Looking forward to Autumn
Meanwhile, like I said, there has been some improvement. Maybe I'll be well enough to travel again by next year. Meanwhile, I've been stuck at home most of the time.
We were able to make the longest road trip since my injury to Raleigh, which is an hour drive away, to see a friend who lives in California performing at The Reeves Theatre last Saturday. It was great to see and hear live music and to visit with a pal I haven't seen in a long time.
I'm still well enough to look forward to Halloween. We're (I'm) already planning to start decorating the yard soon with our Spooky Lady graveyard and pumpkins. I've already bought a few bags of candy. I found popcorn balls in the shelf at Target yesterday and I couldn't resist picking some up to stash away for Trick-or-Treaters.
I hope I'm in even better shape by December. I've got no solid Christmas plans, as usual, but Karen and Bob will probably be around to spend Christmas day with this year. Christmas eve, I will no doubt be working at the dress shop. I already put in RTO for the Scandinavian Christmas Market, a one-day event at the fairgrounds, and Winter Solstice.
As a retail worker, I can't expect any other time off between the beginning of November and the middle of January. I wish I had some good side-gigs that I could do at home. Mostly, I just stay knotted into a ball of anxiety here due to my isolation and ignorance of what to do about stressers like my realtor in Atlanta who doesn't want to pay me, what to do about getting on Medicare but not yet on Social Securty — so I have extra costs for that — and the fact that I pay too much to Adobe every month to keep my software for Creative Suite apps that I can't yet bear to let go of even though they are not paying for themselves but giving me any work here.
Monday, July 29, 2024
The Crown is gone. Long live the new crown.
Sunday, June 30, 2024
I feel like I know nothing about how to advocate for myself.
Sunday, April 07, 2024
the realtor problem continues
Monday, April 01, 2024
anxiety
All I do is worry and I can't seem to shut off my anxiety. It impairs my own ability to function, to sleep, to focus on everything else that I should already be dealing with like getting the con-man who is supposed to be managing my condo in Atlanta out of it. I froze my bank account so he stopped taking money out of it. Now, he can only deposit money but he's still screwed up my taxes, claiming I made much more than he paid me. It's become apparent I can no longer manage taking care of my condo long-distance like I have been. I need to sell it, once this realtor is gone from my life, and put the money in a CD of some sort.
I need to learn what I have to do to file for Social Security and Medicare this year. What to do and what not to do. How does it work? There's no one here to help me with that, except Karen, and she doesn't have time between teaching college again and traveling out of the country.
I really need help with all of these things.
Tuesday, March 12, 2024
sleep issues with an old man in the house
Monday, March 04, 2024
Good Morning
Friday, February 16, 2024
this week and today
Wednesday, Valentines Day, we re-watched WereWolf by Night on Disney, which I enjoyed. I gave MonsterMustDie a Wednesday Valentine card. He gave me flowers. Then we had our weekly Zoom visit with with Brian and Laura.
Thursday was a long day working on my feet at the dress shop. They scheduled me 9:30AM to 5:00PM and I stayed an extra hour because someone didn't show up for work but they released me at 6:00PM after shuffling a few people around. I was tired so I went to bed early. Woke up for a while during the night but I was able to go back to sleep.
Today was the 3-doctor consultation at Duke Cancer Center at 8:00 AM. I kept saying we should be on the road by 6:00 at the latest. MonsterMustDie kept insisting that, because the navigation app said the trip was just over one hour, we could wait until after 6:30. Guess who was correct because the other person refused to count on time to park or morning traffic or their requests to arrive early for paperwork or just finding the correct office. We pulled up hot at 8:00 and I let him out at the front door before I went on to park and walk back.
Afterwards, we had lunch at Blue Corn Cafe. Quite tasty, in a feminine environment.
Monday, February 12, 2024
how I am
Saturday, January 20, 2024
consciousness
I really don't seem to pay attention to anything around me anymore. I think I'm spending too much time inside myself. When I'm not worrying about things I feel helpless about, I'm just going through the moves without looking at anyone or giving anything much thought.
Saturday, January 13, 2024
adventures in retail
I spend a lot of time in my isolated corner of the dress shop looking at what customers are wearing.
12-19-2023