Halloween Eve

Working tonight at the dress shop. Taking tomorrow off work and looking forward to Halloween, which is my favorite holiday. We haven't done anything very Halloweenie this year other than decorate the front yard with a slimmed down version of the graveyard scene. MonsterMustDie has no energy for anything and doesn't want me to take anything on alone. Between his health problems with cancer, my back issues that might be sciatica or a torn muscle (my doctor has fired me for not having insurance. I can't afford any insurance without a full-time job.) there's not much to do here. The flood damage in Western North Carolina which means we are not visiting friends in Black Mountain or going to any of the festivals in Brevard or Asheville. Nothing happens here in the WASP retirement village that is High Point, NC. My physical pain is a lot better but I still can't sit at my desk long enough to work on art or go through tutorials to stay up-to-date in the remote chance of getting any freelance work. I do a lot of posting and reading standing up at the kitchen counter when he's not home. When he comes home, I try to be quiet while he spends hours scrolling through Facebook or eBay. When he goes to bed, I can stretch out on the love seat with Bluetooth headphones and watch shows or movies he has no interest in and criticizes me for enjoying, saying it's shallow, stupid, or unsophisticated. When he has control of the TV, he just watches fantasy and Japanese animation. Lately, all he watches is Rings of Power... which has made me kinda hate all the things I used to love about the stories of J.R. Tolkein. I am still struggling with my sorry realtor who has control of my condo in Atlanta. Half of the time, I want to move back there. Half of the time, I feel desperate to gain control of it just long enough to have Cindi sell it so I never have to try to manage a place I'm not currently living in. Then again, if anything happens to MonsterMustDie, I suspect I will be homeless if I don't have a way to escape this place and move back to Atlanta.