he must adjust, whether he likes it or not

Monstermustdie is already on his second beer this morning. He is on a downward spiral today because he realized his online shops are now in the negative balance from site fees. 

He insisted on only selling what he likes, which no one is buying now. 

He doesn't want to find low end work like retail. He's too old for a labor job. 

Thanksgiving 2021

Thanksgiving with my youngest sister and her family was very nice. Somehow, the short time we spent with them yesterday was very comforting and reassuring to me. I slept well last night for the first time in over a week and woke up in a good mood. I’ve been having a lot of trouble sleeping from anxiety over money, loneliness, this deteriorating house I live in and boredom. 

I’m off work today and have no interest in being anywhere near a shopping center but I’d like to get away from the house. 

Tomorrow and Sunday, I’m back to work at the dress shop.  I’m looking forward to next weekend, when I’m off work 2 days in a row - probably the last predictable free time I’ll have before New Years, when we’ll take in holiday festivities in Greensboro on Friday evening and go to the Scandinavian Christmas Market in Raleigh on Saturday.