The big litter box

We started noticing several large dugouts in the mulch -covered hill at the side of our house.  At first, MonsterMustDie thought someone had stolen a few of the large rocks we have sunk into the hill (people do steal potted plants,  tool, and other landscape materials ).  Today,  I found out that the feral cats are pooping all over it. The mulch and soil are just soft enough to be a perfect litter pile.

Is this the Final Showdown at the Time Clock?

I've been doing the two part-time job dance for a while now, still hoping to find full-time work and unable to get more than two half-days a week from job no. 2 but hoping for more time on a regular basis from them. Job no. 1 still only gives me two days a week, usually, despite the fact that I was hired under the agreement that I would train at part-time hours and immediately go to full-time with full benefits after that brief training period. I don't suppose any business hires anyone for full-time hours anymore unless they are admin jobs. That would be okay if my hours were predictable so I could easily fill in the gaps with another job and avoid any conflicts. Neither job wants to give me that. My hours change on an as-needed basis. I am unspeakably frustrated. I want to work. I need to make money. I need the interaction of other human beings. Admittedly, job no. 1 is very hard on me physically and most of my co-workers, who are half my age and twice my size and did not spend their lives working at a computer, seem to view me as a primadonna.

Here is today's correspondence from from job no.1, who still give me more hours per week than my preferred job - no. 2.

Is this the final showdown? I don't know. This is my correspondence with them today.

I might be down to working 8 hours a week at one job.

This is actually an email I sent LAST WEEK and never got an answer to it. I re-sent it today with the additional reminder about the time off for weddings.

Begin forwarded message:

From: Moi

Subject: Re: My Schedule and Availability

Date: August 17, 2016 at 11:58:33 AM EDT

To: Department Manager

I will be there between 1:30 and 2:00 p.m.

That's the best I can do.

- Moi

 

On Aug 17, 2016, at 10:23 AM, Department Manager wrote:

Moi,

If you don't work your scheduled shift on the 23rd it will be counted as an absence, I already have the closing shift covered.

Thank You,

Dept Manager

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From: Moi
Sent: Wednesday, August 17, 2016 10:08:24 AM
Subject: My Schedule and Availability

Here is my schedule at the other place, for now. Set in stone from their end.

Wed, 8/17, 3:00PM - 7:00PM

Tues 8/23, 9:00AM - 1:00PM  (conflict - I could work 2:00PM-10:00PM if necessary)

Fri, 8/26, 3:00PM - 7:00PM

Here is my availability:

Thu, 8/18, FREE ALL DAY  and scheduled at F&D 8:00AM-5:00PM

Fri, 8/19 - 8/21, FREE ALL DAY  available for work

Wed, 8/24, FREE ALL DAY  available for work

Thu, 8/25, FREE ALL DAY and scheduled at F&D 8:00AM-2:00PM

F.I.Y.

I still need to be off work Sept 9 - 11 to attend a wedding on September 10 in Atlanta, Georgia.

I need to be off work for my own wedding, now moved to October 15. Please allow me to be off work October 13- 17.

hot and tired

Worked a surprisingly good day at  retail job #1 and got lots of compliments from co-workers. Found out one of the managers has left the store, which is a huge loss because he had took a lot of product and company knowledge with him. We have a new flock of young employees from nearby colleges, some former employees looking for part-time filler work, and former employees of our competitors.

I think I am not made to drive a forklift so, after agonizing for so long about doing it, I'm okay with staying away from them. Everyone reminds me how much I hate driving cars and how far that is from the culture I was raised in. In retrospect, I think I would not make a good operator and its in the company's best interest that I steer clear of them. My anxiety kicks in just looking at them.

Every time I go in now to job #1, I think it will be my last day and that I'll be fired soon for all the work conflicts I have trying to manage schedules for two part-time jobs.

I see no hope on the horizon for employment in the field I am educated for or for returning to college.

Even if I returned to college, would that even benefit me by the time it would take to finish a new Master's degree in the hopes of finding work? I think not. I think my age - past 50 - still makes me unattractive to employers. Anyway I would never  be able to schedule classes with my current lifestyle and I can't afford online college. I don't qualify for any grants or loans, either.

I need a business plan for something I can start myself, with no money up front, using what I already have, in a place where I know no one. Perhaps online, where location is not a concern.

It has been hot this week with temperatures in the 90s again. Both myself and MonsterMustDie have been feeling insurmountable fatigue from the heat. Sunday, we ran errands in the morning and spent the rest of the afternoon and evening languishing indoors, in the AC, Could not even be motivated to do indoor activities. Yesterday, we both came home exhausted from work and slept deeply last night under the fan. Ceiling fans are a lifesaver, especially when you don't want to kill your AC unit.

It amazes me how long my grandmother lived without air-conditioning. She relied on fans in a duplex built in the 40's with transom windows over all the doorways. For the winter, she had one central heater in the basement that had a huge "baby burner" vent in the hallway floor. No fan necessary for the heater - hot air rises and created its own warm breeze from the center of the house. The garden she had was great. It was a back yard full of large flowers, green grass, and a concrete bird bath in the center. Teal-painted brick patio. There was always a little vegetable garden on the left side of the back yard and climbing rose bushes on the right side of the yard against the fence. A home-made shed and fenced-in compost pile sat at the very back of the lot. Tomatoes. Strawberries. Quince. Hollyhock. Four'O Clocks. Hydrangeas. Roses. Caladiums. Etc, She saved seeds as well for the following year.

Today, I work at part-time retail job #2. This is my preferred workplace but, alas, they give me even less hours than job #1. However, I have hope that they will increase the frequency of my schedule with them. The job pays the same as #1 and is much closer to home and easier on my body. I am always beaten up physically after working at #1. I have bruises and cuts all over me from yesterday. Job #2 has co-worker who are a lot less depressing to be around as well. Better all-around environment. Today will be a good day.

High Anxiety

It's been a very high-stress weekend. Multiple scheduling conflicts. Financial conflicts. Bad vibes all around. Trying to work everything out as best I can without losing everything.

Sandy pointed out that the High Point Market happens a week later than usual this year and now falls on October 22, the same day we were planning our wedding in High Point. MonsterMustDie made a mistake telling us the market was the week before. There are no hotels, rentals or catering companies with openines that week. Now, I'm scrambling to change the date that was already in my opinion too soon.

The work schedule that had no conflicts previouslyrics was reorganized by someone and now everything is conflicting between my two part time jobs.

My condo is sitting vacant while I am spending $1200 this week alone on cleaning and repairs.