Well, that was a surprise

We were watching videos of local law enforcement officers in Atlanta being completely unapologetic about racist, anti-Asian remarks they made and I was bemoaning that conservative news programs were referring to the spas where the murders of the 8 women took place as massage parlors. I really expected him to be just as appalled with journalists taking cheap shots at the victims but I got just the opposite reaction from him. 

MonsterMustDie, rather than agreeing with my sentiment, insisted that all spas are brothels and he would not back down on that statement. In his mind, that includes spas that I've been to with friends because he insists all spas have other activities going on in back.  

 I guess this is why men never have any interest in spa days. He says they're all, at the very least, jack-shacks. If that is the majority belief, that all of the women who were killed were prostitutes, no one is going to see much wrong with what happened. 

bad brain

I walked into the den last night and saw Monstermustdie watching a StarWars movie he had just seen last Friday. He had no memory of watching it five days ago. At first,  I didn't think much of it because he has a habit of repeatedly watching the same movies or anime series over and over but I asked him why he wasn't watching the next chapter of the series and he insisted he had not seen it before. 

My health is not great these days

Friday,  February 5th started with a migraine headache that had me in bed for 36 hours. 

Based on the advice of friends, I had my third Covid19 test on February 8th. That test came out negative, just like all the tests prior that we've both had. the healthcare worker who administered the test agreed with my friends that the headache the weekend before could have been Covid... but it wasn't after all, I am happy to know. I think the headache was just caused by a combination of stress, dehydation, and the antibiotics I had just been on for a UTI. Antibiotics do trigger headaches for me some times. I'd still prefer the pain of a paralyzing migraine any time instead of a UTI. 

Friday, February 13 I woke up with UTI symptoms again. Then, the power went out at 7:30 AM. I was saved by friends  - I remembered I still had some extra antibiotics for the UTI, given to me by a fantastic friend who had extra and sent them to me. The power stayed off all day but our pod-mates in Greensboro who still had electricity at their house and invited us - and the cat- to stay there until the power was restored. Fortunately it was back by the end of the day. We went home after dinner to a warm home.  

 Last week, MonsterMustDie got his second Covid19 vaccine shot. At least one of us has health insurance and is now vaccinated.

MonsterMustDie seems to be loosing his mind lately. Last Saturday, he was more inebriated than I've seen him in a long time, nodding off during our saturday Zoom with friends. His speech was slurred. I don't know what motivated him to get so wasted that day but I went to bed that night while he stayed on the couch with the beer he wanted to finish, just staring into space. He was back in his right mind the next day with no hangover, apparently. 

Today, MonsterMustDie is back to having memory problems. He is repeating the same questions over and over and he can't use the TV remote. I don't know if that is early signs of dementia or too much alcohol again. Probably a little of both, unfortunately. I really wish I knew how to take care of him when he fails. I don't know anything about these things and we don't really have a local support network here - we have two very good friends who live in Greensboro and that's it other than some of John's former work friends. He seems to be fading but he can't see it in himself. 

There are good days and bad days. There are some very strange behaviors that he's into now. I found out recently that he still has a bunch of old electronics in his car that he told me he took to recycling months ago. He lied. He's just taken all the trash out of the house and is keeping it in his car now. He's drinking a lot more now. He is impossible to talk to about any of this. He just gets angry and shuts me down and I am not able to argue. 

I think I need a vacation.